Not For Me?

As I could only look on from afar
As I could only scream
call
Only to the extent that
Because only does it
That I can do
Too beautiful you touch me
I have too perfect yourself
But I do always keep
Your name in my heart
Because you are my first love
The first scream my heart
First decorate my heart
But love is an unattainable
That would be
And will never reach
Because you are not for me